The Words Were Never Meant To Leave
I never wrote this for claps, or praise from a crowd, I wrote because my head gets loud, and the thoughts won’t quiet down. Sometimes it’s pen and paper, sometimes notes in my phone,…
The Things I Thought Were Just Me
I thought it was just me, this leg that never learnt to rest, the fingers scratching at my skin while saying I’m not even stressed. The quotes I say on constant loop, the same…
My Brain Has Better WiFi on Paper
Ask me face to face what’s going on, I’ll say, “I’m sound” then waffle on. Make some joke, scratch my beard, change the subject, disappear. It’s not that I’ve got nowt to say, my…
I’m Tired
I took the mask off, then the noise came back, like it had been sat there, waiting to attack. ADHD laughing, boots on my floor, kicking every locked up memory through the door. I…
The Weekend Goblin Committee
My autistic brain says, “Quiet night, mate. Please. Joggers on, phone off, and leave me in peace.” ADHD goblin kicks the door like he owns the bloody place, with a bottle of JD in…
Fuck It, It Is What It Is
Sometimes life needs a proper plan, a list of jobs and a capable man. Sometimes the list can stay where it sits, while I take one breath and just say… Fuck it. My brain’s…
The Lights Are Off In My Head
I’m writing this from somewhere low, where basic thoughts don’t land, where tomorrow feels too far away, and today won’t leave my hands. My head feels like a cave inside, cold walls and dripping…
Two Blokes In One Skull
There are two blokes in my head, neither knows what the other said. One speaks routine, rules and facts, the other throws fireworks into the gaps. One wants the same mug, same chair, same…
Built With Strange Parts
I was never “normal”, whatever that means, just a kid with a loud head and torn up jeans. Sat alone with my toys, making worlds on the floor, while everyone else seemed to know…
Four Weeks of Turmoil
The house felt dead. The future had fucked off. A decade of love reduced to boxes, quiet rooms and one final door being shut. I stood there carrying all of it, like someone had…